Bittersweet, somber type anniversary.......and more updates!

Well I knew I wanted to write about this since DH brought it up the other week to me. So reflecting on our up coming life change, my DH asked me to look at my calendar from last year as he figured - hey hasn't it been a year since our first IVF attempt? Well lo and behold it was a year to the date that he brought it up that we were in the process of treatment with IVF #1 ....

Now I have mentioned before how I felt this IVF attempt the second time was a type of "sign" and in sorts of "divine intervention" well TO THE DATE my due date (August 28) is EXACTLY to the date of my "WTF" appointment with the clinic in Edmonton after our failed cycle. How weird right?!

I think its funny how things work out but obviously this was all meant to be, and in just a week or less (HOPEFULLY) we will be meeting bambino/bambina and PLEASE come sooner than a week - I AM SO SO READY lol.....

Today I had my first stranger pregnancy experience so to say - I was picking up a birthday gift for my niece and the cashier looked at me and said "Your about to pop any day aren't you?" I said well yes in a week - her response " Yah I can tell - your going to pop" UMMMMMMM LMFAO....I have not had any stranger say anything to me in 9 months until today - I had to laugh and I called my DH right away to tell him.....

Update - this one I meant to write yesterday (I think I even said it would be a double entry day - well fail on my part!!!!)

I had an ultrasound two weeks ago - because my fundal height has been measuring 4 weeks behind consistently since my 32 week checkup. Well baby seems to be fine - Dr is not worried - but half of the baby I guess to say is not measuring to date - I know ultrasounds aren't always 100% accurate, but our babies femur and stomach is measuring at about 32 and 33 weeks (I don't remember the exact number) but this was August 09 - so due to the measurements that were taken - I go for another ultrasound on Friday just to double check. Now the dr. said that if he felt baby or myself were in danger they would induce me - but it doesn't seem to be the case - since he wasn't in a rush to do the follow up ultrasound.... Heck I'd love to be induced early lol - but whatever is best for the baby and the dr. said the babies bio-physical score (happiness score as he referred to) is 8/8 which means baby has space, is active, is receiving enough oxygen etc. so I am not worried - of course I used stupid Dr. Google and it stated that a small femur or stomach measurement could be a soft marker for downs' syndrome, now again not worried because my NT scans and tests came back fine - but again nothing is 100% correct right? I am not stressing - I am just praying for a healthy baby - of course we will love the baby no matter what -  I am just hoping that everything truly is ok - and that in all aspects we are just having a small baby (easier delivery?!?!!)

Well that really is what I wanted to update - next OB appointment is Thursday afternoon and ultrasound on Friday - and here is to hoping I will have a baby before I decide to do another update!!!

XO

Fourth appointment, Day Seven of stims

Well we had another ultrasound today and all looks well!! Dr. G is very happy with the way things are progressing - we have many follicles anything from 7.8-14.3 mm - so we are slowly getting there!!

Next ultrasound is Saturday, and our tentative retrieval date is still Monday, December 03 - which is going to be here before we know it! It is very exciting!

We are lowering my medication tomorrow night just to ensure that we don't suffer from OHSS, we thought we would have lowered it tonight but my estridol rose to 772 and Dr. G thought it would be higher, so Dr. G wanted one more day at the higher dose, which is "A" ok with us.

DH asked Dr. G if everything is on track and he said he couldn't be happier - so that  is a good sign right?!

One thing that has my mind spinning now - is during my U/S today - Dr. G asked me if I ever considered being a egg donor (because I have sooo many follicles) wow something to think about - I mean with our first IVF attempt - we had 45 oocytes retrieved and I thought that was a lot and it was a "record" for my clinic at that time and from that we had 30 mature eggs - now if things went right and we had even 20 of those fertilize (oh if only) I would NEVER use them all - now I am wondering how many we will get here - Dr. G went on to tell me he has a patient who has no interest in having children but she does egg donation - and she is a regular at giving 85 oocytes!! yes you read that right 85 oocytes at a retrieval and NEVER suffers from OHSS - this boggles my mind - and obviously after hearing something like that it was a hot topic for my DH and I this afternoon.

I don't think that I would right away donate (and right away I mean this cycle), but obviously freeze any extras (here's to hoping) and then using them and maybe when we think we are done expanding our family then maybe at that point consider donation -but that is so, so far away - can't really make a decision at this point - but still 85 - WOW

Oh the hormones are definitely doing their thing - I can feel my tummy becoming tender I guess - that's the best way to describe it -
And I had a crying spell again - oh my poor DH - the tears just started flowing last night in the lounge of our hotel - no reason - we were just sitting there and the waterworks started - poor guy - damn hormones - but it only lasted a couple minutes and then they were over, he never knows what to do - and if he looks or tries to ask why - I just cry harder - but he did his job - he got me my tissue and that made it all better - oh the simple things to make it stop - lol - but it's all part of our journey and something I hope he has come to accept!!!!

Now we have a couple days to ourselves, we will golf tomorrow and maybe do a tour on Friday - maybe the lagoon boating tour - where you drive these mini boats yourself (I do not do well on boats, especially if we head into the ocean) so I hope I do ok - it's only two hours - so I am hoping I can last - I should do ok in the lagoon area since basically it's like a lake - and I can do lakes back home - but if we head into the ocean to snorkel - we may have a completely different experience - hoping the sun re-appears soon - these overcast days are not so much fun!!

I will probably post again on Saturday or Sunday after our next appointment - and hopefully soon sit down to give you all the down low on our "history"

Till next time!!

Thanks for reading :-)