Update, transfer, 2ww, Beta results

Well

Got to Mexico, met with the clinic - had three survive the thaw - we were asked if we wanted to transfer three - after talking with the embryologist - the third wasn't ready enough - and even if it was - it would have been all too risky.

Transferred two, monitored the third overnight - which developed beautifully and ended up refreezing.

Spent a couple quiet days in Cancun.
Went home - had my mother and MIL help me on my restrictive week

Tested early at 6dp5dt - BFN

Took three more - all between 8dp5dt & 11dp5dt - all BFN

Had a feeling my beta would be negative also.

Which was confirmed today -- BFN

Cried my heart out

Time to regroup

Continue our process of moving our embabies to Canada - paperwork is already in motion.

This blog will be quiet for sure for awhile- taking time to ourselves - taking time to get myself fit again (time to finally lose my pregnancy weight from my DS) and then assess our next steps

Thanks for all the love and prayers

XO

Remember - I am still willing and open to talk - so please feel free to email me.

Roadtoafamily@gmail.com 

WHY CAN'T THIS BE EASY???

Agh here I am crying as I write this post.

We had made a decision - not to go ASAP - but as soon as the decision was made and clinic contacted I have begun to question this decision - MY HEART IS SO SO SO SO SO SO SO TORN

AF decided to show today as I figured she would - if I go in March - I HAVE to decide by tomorrow - I am just waiting from my clinic for protocol dates - I would have to start estrace again tomorrow - AGGGHHHH I don't know what to do

DH (dear husband) is just as torn - and together we are the most indecisive couple that has ever existed…. Why can't there be an easy answer?????

Why are we here 5.5 years into trying to have a baby - blessed with one little boy who I can't even describe how much I love him -but we I KNOW our family isn't complete…..

But this is emotionally draining, physically draining, financially draining - I think DH had a bit of break down tonight - those were partially his words - its true - I love our journey - but how long can one go on for? How many times does one try? How much money do you spend? When do you stop and say be happy with what you have and move on.

So much I can ramble about - so torn - I wish the answer was easy….

The whoas of an infertile

Sitting around praying for your period to show up so that you can start your protocol for FET………